In Other Words

Last Words

Last day in Singapore. Let me try to put in words, how I feel. This for future years, so that I may look back and compare what I feel like then to what I feel like now. (A long way to say, ‘keeping a memory’.)

I think this is possibly one of the hardest times to leave. I’m not exactly sure, as I can’t remember what I felt like when I left holland all those years ago, but I have the feeling that this one is the toughest. This is the place where, to date, I have the feeling I built the ‘biggest’ life. As I get older it seems to get a little harder to let go of the stability that friends and family provide.

Still, it is possible to let go and I’m looking forward to the chances that the future will provide. I leave with a lot more confidence then I did last time. This time I know I will succeed, together with Banana Super Hero Girl. I am confident in my abilities and my fear of two months ago has faded away to nothing. I am not afraid, for I know we will succeed. It is the way it has to be, so that is the way it will be.

I won’t miss Singapore, what I will miss is the people in Singapore. I hope they all fuck off out of Singapore, so that I can see them elsewhere. Singapore isn’t all bad, after all it has helped raise the most important woman in my life, but it is still pretty damn bad. This place will only let you grow so far and after that you hit a ceiling. Like a tree that grows too tall for the room it is in, the people that need to continue to grow, end up growing twisted. They end up growing in undesirable and uncontrollable directions, with their gnarled branches reaching out towards any chinks and gaps that can be found.

I feel sorry for the people in Singapore, because they can never truly understand what I’m talking about until they have spent some real time outside of Singapore. They will have trouble grasping open mindedness, because their lives are designed to be small-minded. I hope they find freedom and liberty in their time.

I will miss my friends and family. That is all I can say. I will also miss the convenience. That is something else that will require some readapting.

I just hope that this time I can take the effort to remain in touch with those people I have grown to love and respect here. I’ve gotten better, let’s hope I’ve gotten good enough.

Adieu Singapore, may your future be bright, your government disposed and your people be allowed to taste the fruits of free thought.

Adieu my friends, may the long arm of the law be too short to catch you when you stray, may those that need to feel the warmth of your inner fire and may you get what you deserve, what ever that may be.

posted by Symbol @ 20.12.04